Here it is – my first blog post.
Lay Out Your Fleece
The Lord has been on me about this for a while now and I’m finally trusting in His direction. Stepping out in faith is hard. Really hard. I wonder whether I heard Him right. What if this is my dream, not His assignment for me? How will I know for sure?
If you have ever experienced these thoughts, you know what I mean. This time, though, it was different. Every time I came up with a reason not to write, not to share my story, not to follow His leading, He directed me otherwise. He calmed by fears with peace. He turned my doubt into belief. He put confidence in my heart like I have never had on my own. I was a female Gideon.
Lay Out Your Fleece
Now faith is confidence in what we hope for
and assurance about what we do not see.
I was feeling nervous. That kind of nervous that starts in the pit of your stomach and although your try to ignore it, it reaches your throat and threatens your confidence.
I began second guessing the Lord’s calling for me to write. He had made it perfectly clear this was His plan and I trusted Him. I embarked on a thrilling but scary journey, knowing the Lord was with me, experiencing the confidence only He can provide.
Then I read another author’s material. It was good. It was great, actually. All at once, I began to question what I was hearing from God. Am I really sure this is my calling? My writing might not be as good as I think it is…
Doubting what the Lord was clearly telling me, I sat down on the couch to do my morning devotion. Okay God, I thought, what are we going to do about this? I tapped on the app on my phone to see the verse of the day.
Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see. Hebrews 11:1
A knowing smile crept across my lips. Of course this would be the verse of the day – it was exactly what I needed to be reminded of. God has done this numerous times over the past few years. He responds directly to my need just when I need and I’m learning to trust Him more and more. He is teaching me to take him at His word, yet is lovingly patient when I doubt.
I’m reminded of Gideon and his similar doubt/ reassurance experience. Judges 6 tells of the Lord’s direction for Gideon to lead the Israelite army to victory. Gideon wasn’t so sure he was qualified for that assignment, so he asked God to show him physical evidence to confirm he was hearing the Lord correctly.
“Look, I will place a wool fleece on the threshing floor. If there is dew only on the fleece and all the ground is dry, then I will know that you will save Israel by my hand, as you said.” And that is what happened. Gideon rose early the next day; he squeezed the fleece and wrung out the dew—a bowlful of water. v 37-38
I don’t know about you, but sometimes I don’t want God to respond with confirmation. He may be asking me to do something really scary. Something I just cannot see working out – it seems to be an impossible achievement. Something so far removed from my comfort zone that I think God must have me mistaken for someone else.
I wonder if Gideon felt the same way – perhaps he was hoping the dew would be on the grass. So, to be super-duper sure, he made one more request.
Then Gideon said to God, “Do not be angry with me. Let me make just one more request. Allow me one more test with the fleece, but this time make the fleece dry and let the ground be covered with dew.” That night God did so. Only the fleece was dry; all the ground was covered with dew. v 39-40
Have you ever had someone else believe in you more than you believed in yourself? Perhaps you’ve been given a deadline at work you thought was impossible to make; you’re boss believed you could achieve it. Or maybe you thought, “I could never run a marathon”, but low and behold, after three months of training, you did.
God gives us divine assignments He knows we can achieve. Gideon is reassured of his assignment and trusts in the Lord to bring victory to the Israelites.
What is the Lord nudging you to do today? Is there anything you’re feeling unsure or insecure about and need lay out your fleece to experience the reassuring confidence of the Lord? Take heart, you are not alone. Be confident – He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion. (Phil 1:6)
Lord, thank you for Your faithfulness and today’s reminder that You can be trusted even when we doubt. When we are called according to Your plan, we can be confidently reassured of the direction You are leading, no matter how desolate the path.