The Holy Spirit will give you the words to say at the moment when you need them.
Luke 12:12, the VOICE
I found myself in unfamiliar territory.
Something I had previously been passionate about wasn’t even peeking my interest. After falling in love with writing, I looked forward to weekly blog posts. It wasn’t difficult to find inspiration and the words came with little effort.
But the honeymoon phase ended and I was left feeling disenchanted by the whole thing. Previously, I couldn’t bear the thought of missing a week – my goal when starting this blog was to post once a week. I was committed to that goal and achieved it for over eight months. I spent time in the Word, praying, and asking God what to write. I knew this was something He had called me to do and I desperately wanted to avoid failure.
Now, as the weeks passed, I wondered if I would post again. I began pushing the guilt down deep enough to pretend it wasn’t there. I struggled to find the words and was ready to give up. I didn’t really care if I continued to do something I believed the Lord was calling me to do.
Finally, I did some soul searching. I had to shake off the funk. While checking my email one evening, a sentence caught my attention – “If we do what we want, when we want, we will waste the little time we have”. I realized that I had been doing what I wanted rather than what God wanted me to do. My indifference was masking a deep fear I didn’t want to acknowledge. I was disappointed by the lack of progress I was making and questioned my ability to be successful as an author.
Sometimes, doing nothing feels safer than risking failure.
I reasoned that if I didn’t expose my tender underbelly by sharing my writing, I wouldn’t risk being injured. I wouldn’t risk rejection. I wouldn’t risk the uneasiness that comes with stepping out in faith to do the Lord’s work.
Then it hit me. I was letting fear hold me back. Again. Fear has been my constant companion. The thorn in my side. I could rattle off numerous reasons as to why I shouldn’t move forward and as I did so, I was reminded of Moses. He really didn’t want to go to Pharaoh and ask for the freedom of the Israelites. He was allowing fear to cloud the Lord’s calling on his life. He thought he knew better than God and tried to talk Him out of it:
“Who am I that I should go to Pharaoh and bring the Israelites out of Egypt?” (Exodus 3:11)
“Suppose I go to the Israelites and say to them, ‘The God of your fathers has sent me to you,’ and they ask me, ‘What is his name?’ Then what shall I tell them?” (v. 13)
“What if they do not believe me or listen to me and say, ‘The Lord did not appear to you’?” (Exodus 4:1)
“Pardon your servant, Lord. I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue.” (v. 10)
“Pardon your servant, Lord. Please send someone else.” (v. 13)
Despite Moses’ pleading with God to change His mind, the Lord used Moses. He coupled Moses with his brother, Aaron, and together, they went to Egypt and Pharaoh eventually freed the Israelites. In spite of his fear, it was the Lord’s plan for Moses to do this.
The Lord has a specific plan for my life as well and nothing will prevent it from happening. He may allow me to complain, make excuses, and procrastinate, but He will never give up on me. He is not alarmed when the words won’t come. He isn’t bothered by my questioning. He doesn’t worry when I take a break. He knows how my story ends.
He knows how your story ends, also. Is fear holding you back from something God wants you to do? When the words won’t come, ask God to share His. The Bible says He “will help you speak and will teach you what to say.” (Exodus 4:12) Believe that “the Holy Spirit will give you the words to say at the moment when you need them.” (Luke 12:12, the VOICE) And trust in His promise of a plan for your life – a plan to prosper you; a plan to give you a hope and a future. (Jeremiah 29:11)